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Title: Goodbye
Summary: 12.21 Drabble. Sam's mourning Eileen.
Rating: PG13
Genre/Spoilers: Gen.
Warnings: Unbeta'd
Word Count: 100
Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural that privilege belongs to CW, Kripke and Co, I'm simply borrowing them for a while. I'm not making a profit, this is just for fun and all the standard disclaimers apply.


The anger and guilt burn hellfire-hot in Sam’s belly, because he should have done something to save her. Anything. But it’s all too little, too late.

Eileen meant more to him than he wants to admit; like he’s lost someone who could have filled an empty space within him. She was smart, and funny, and she got the hunter’s life, and who he is and why. She was the kind of woman he could imagine making a life with.

He hopes that she’s safe now; that she’s found some peace with her family. She deserves that, and so much more.

A/N: Well, what we all feared would happen, has. I feel hurt and disappointed, but I think Jared did a beautiful job of showing us Sam's grief. I loved the badass Winchesters, and Mary's scenes with Ketch, and how we see her when she had her will, and then when she didn't (I loved seeing the vulnerable side of her, how she begged for Ketch to kill her, and how she fears for her boys). Also, there's something that I love about the boys being left in the bunker to slowly die, like how they've just signed their initials on it, made it their home, and now it's going to kill them. So much potential! Anyway, I had to focus on Sam and Eileen here, because I wanted more.

Date: 2017-05-15 05:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I loved your drabble, and love your thoughts on the episode. I agree, Jared did a wonderful job of showing how ruined Sam was about it.

Date: 2017-05-15 05:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you! I was so sad to see Eileen go; she didn't need to, and I wanted more from her. While the script could have given us more of her loss (and less exposition!) I think JP showed us a lot, and actually JA did too in the way Dean kept focusing on Sam like he knew that he was closer to her, and was maybe feeling her loss more.

I kept thinking back to Sam's speech in Baby about picturing himself with a hunter, and I saw that in Eileen, and I like to think that Sam did too. Thank you so much for stopping by and commenting :)

Date: 2017-05-15 06:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
{quietly sobbing)

Date: 2017-05-16 11:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
She deserved so much better! I guess we're all going to have to fic a happier ending.

Date: 2017-05-16 07:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Not watched yet, still. Using quick-reply to say I'm bookmarking this xx

Date: 2017-05-16 11:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you lovely!x

Date: 2017-05-17 01:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Aww, Sam. :( I loved how you captured his guilt and grief, as well as his hope that she’s in a better place. Lovely work! I’m sad about Eileen, but was glad we got to see Sam grieving.

Date: 2017-05-17 10:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yes, I think we all feared it was coming, and while I think they could have given us a bit more, Jared did all he could to show us Sam's grief, and I really appreciate that.

Thank you for stopping by :)

Date: 2017-05-24 02:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
You've captured his feelings very well, and I agree, Jared did a great job showing us Sam's heartbreak.

I'm so sad about Eileen... she deserved better. *sigh*

For me, it confirms something I've felt all along... that it doesn't matter if a girlfriend (or potential girlfriend) is a hunter or not... this isn't going to work out for Sam.

Date: 2017-05-24 03:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you! I loved Jared's performance here as he showed us Sam's distress and grief. And yes, Eileen definitely deserved more.

It certainly does feel like Sam won't ever find someone to share his life with. Let's hope he'll at least have his family.

Thanks again for stopping by :)


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